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TO QUESTION OR NOT TO QUESTION?

 

In my very essence, am I finished and immutable, or, am I in the process of becoming? Do my actions have any effect on my ultimate fate, or, is my very ignorance of any such effect a sufficient assurance that they make no difference whatsoever? Does it matter how people really feel and what they think, or, is it of importance only to the extent that it helps me to influence them to do what I want? In the shadow of the Unknown, can I be carefree, or, should I try to be responsible? What to do in the absence of ultimate guidance? Follow instincts, or enforce intellectually constructed schemes? Be free to act in any manner whatsoever, or feel ever hesitant and restrained?

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Why justify conditions not of our choosing? If I accept and tolerate disagreeable states, do I show strength and resilience, or just plain helplessness? If I continue to go along and not oppose things objectionable, am I accepting a subservient and impotent standing with respect to outside forces? Does it make me wholly manipulable, externally-determined and inconsequential? Or, is it that I just harmonize with the larger world and properly offer no resistance to the flow of which I am a part? In short, in so doing do I violate or follow my Nature? If I accept pain, do I strengthen my spirit, or, do I just find a convenient way to explain and glorify that which I can not change? Am I succumbing to the animal dictates or crossing a spiritual threshold? If existence hurts, then it is an imperative toward change. But change toward what? If I am dissatisfied with my condition, and yet unable to change it to my liking, how long do I continue to accept it and when do I resort to radical solutions? If I take charge and interfere with fate, will I break some sacred laws and suffer punishment, or, will I set myself free and graduate to a higher plane of self-determination? Am I really free, or should I persist in fear? If I take drastic action, do I show cowardice or courage? Is it foolish irresponsibility or admirable resolve? In so doing, do I triumph over the inner animal, or do I defeat the only guidance system that Nature equipped me with? Is my quest for validation in the seeming consistency of logical schemes correct and proper, or does it indicate weakness of faith?

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